Alone, but not Lonely — Facing Solitude with an Open Heart

I won’t lie, I’m a little scared about going back to my usual life: work routines, city noise, less sun, more rain and cold. But I guess I’ll have to accept that reality and adapt there too.

I also feel nervous about going to Thailand after being here. Here, even as the only student, I don’t feel alone. My days are structured with classes and I share my time with the teachers, that become my friends. The breaks in between feel like gifts, moments to simply be with myself or text my people. 

In Thailand, I’ll truly be alone; no teachers, no schedule, no plan. Just me. That thought is both exciting and terrifying. I crave nature and simplicity, yet that also means fewer social connections.

Sometimes I feel I contradict myself,  I want to share experiences and exchange ideas, but at the same time, I want to stay in silence, close to nature, with just myself and surrounded by animals. 

Maybe solitude is just another teacher: one that invites you to face your fears and discover freedom and somehow peace inside them.

For now, I’m grateful to be the only student here. It’s given me a new perspective: individual, focused learning and the freedom to adapt each day to my own energy. And maybe that’s what true independence and freedom feels like, being at peace with yourself, wherever you are.