Monkey Mind

Yesterday we meditated at Magic Point at the rocks by the sea during sunset. It was one of the best meditations I’ve had. I’m quite good with asanas, but I still struggle with pranayama and meditation. My mind is restless, always moving, what my old meditation teacher named as “monkey mind.”

Improving that could change so much: more patience, less impulsivity, more peace. I thought this course would bring instant progress, but I’m realizing how far I still am.

Sometimes even breathing naturally feels hard: crazy, right? From the outside it seems simple, but inside it’s the hardest part. Anyway, I’m learning to let go, flow more, to stop trying to control everything, and to be kinder to myself.

I still have nights of insomnia, sometimes because of masala chai, sometimes for no reason. But things are improving. I have a long way ahead, and that’s okay. It’s my way and I’m walking it.